Well tonight I have decided to get out a little of my frustration about how hard it is to find a safe place for my daughter it has been a long two week. I could say stressful and depressing but I really can't say that. Sophie has been with her last sister for some time, but she is no longer there which has been a blessing. I had spent an hour and half type out everything I wanted to say how angry I was with her, how very frustrated I am with her but, I'm not going to be like her and go off and tell people lies. People who really know me know I'm a good mom and very trustworthy and a good friend. I guess that's where I went wrong ask a friend to watch my child knowing they need some extra money and for my peace of mind knowing my daughter would be safe. I wish we end on better terms but she could not see it that way which is sad, she is younger then me and doesn't have the life experience as I do. But I am sure I have ever mother's approval knowing we are the parents not the sitters, Sophie sitter thought it would be ok to spray her with a water bottle when she didn't want her doing something. I was not ok with this Sophie is not a dog and she didn't even ask for my approval, I found out when I picked up my daughter and her shirt was all wet so I ask how Sophie got so wet so then she tells me what she has been doing. Then the last straw Sophie falls out of a chair and cuts her chin and her left foot but did I get a call NO. She said that she made the decision that she was fine and she didn't feel she needed to call me. She seems to forget I am the employer not her I am Sophie mother not her and I get to make the decision if she is ok. Then when I call her and ask her to please next time call me and let me know if my child bleeds or has a deep cut. She said well it didn't bleed she must of forgotten where I work or thought I was stupid anyone who looked @ her cut would see that it did bleed. This is the same sitter who disagreed with Sophie Doctor when Sophie had pink eye from one of her children, she told me her daughter has this all the time and in time is goes away, Sophie had her RX drops for 24 hours and it went away. She disagreed with a MD who went to medical school.
I am not a over protective parent I know my daughter is ruff she bumps her head and she gets scratches because she plays hard ok no need to call me I know this stuff is going to happen. So this really was the last straw really. The old sitter would make comments when I would leave after dropping off Sophie, things you don't say to mother who work 40 hours a week to keep there family above water.
So I would ask her to sit down and talk about it so things wouldn't get out of hand and hash it out. So we could be comfortable around each other, but she would always cancel on me or say now not a good time. I would give her paid days off and ask for a hour to clear the air but she was to immature to get things clear up. So getting down to the bottom line this happened @ a perfect time Trent was off having eye surgery and then our new ward WOW, what a great ward really helping a new family out and then we meet our new sitter I couldn't be any more happier where Sophie is now. She is happy and excited to go and play. The sitter see that Sophie really is a good baby and perfect little girl easy to handle and I'm so happy.
Blessing are the perfect way to hear what our heavenly father wants us to hear, I ask for my brother to come over to give our whole family blessings after this ordeal with Sophie's old sitter and what a blessing, Robert ask his father in law Dean to come and help with the blessing, I was pleased to have a blessing from someone who has never given me a blessing before, I was told that heavenly father knows what's going on and he is blessing us and I don't need to worry or stress that our heavenly father has already paid for this for me and the best thing is I was just fine, and then our sitter has come along and my prays were answered. This is probably the first time I have not been stressed out about finding a sitter or something that has to do with my family. I was also told that I need to forgive and truly feel better after writing out this blog getting my feelings out, I do forgiver her Sophie is safe and with a new sitter and happy. I hope everyone could read and understand my Blog when I get going I know I don't have the perfect grammar but I'm @ least able to get my feelings out. This way I don't have to tell every family member the same thing over and over. This is much better and easier too.
the streets of laredo
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